Invisible madness

Lost March 14, 2010

I have never in my life felt so lost as I do now. I cannot compare it to any other feeling that I have had. Heartbreaks, though not easy are manageable. There is a pain that must be overcome. But the feeling of being lost, is almost akin to nothingness. You don’t know what it is, so it’s harder to manage. Perhaps the feeling I have now is closely connected to the fear of uncertainty. The fear of making a decision and sticking to it. The problem lies though in the decision, in the choice that must be made. I do not know what that decision should be. Or don’t I really? I know I want change. But how? Where? Anywhere but here? Would I not just be perpetuating the feeling of being lost if I were so drastic as to change my circumstances without knowing where I want to be? What I want to become? What I want in life?

Have you ever felt lost? How were you found? What did you do?